Sunday, August 28, 2016

What Sickness Taught Me


I am just a seventeen year old girl who just graduated High School, but let me tell you, life goes by faster and faster everyday!

A couple years back, I was very sick. I had autoimmune diseases, allergies, severe brain fog, fainting spells and an eating disorder. The only reason I got out of bed was to do school work, go to Mass and Ballet. I honestly feel like I missed out on two years of life.

The healing process was very difficult, physically, spiritually and emotionally (you can read some things I learned regarding emotion and spiritual healing HERE).

Everything was hard. Sometimes I catch myself looking back, wishing I wasn't so sick. I missed out on so much. Part of me is filled with regret and the other part of me is thankful, because even though those years were brutally painful and humiliating, they shaped me into the person I am. God used those years to teach me so much. I am who I am because of those years. I pray I never have to go back to that spot again, but I wouldn't trade it for the world.

I have a deeper appreciation for life. My relationship with the Lord has grown immensely. Before I got sick, I honestly took for granted health. I thought I had all of the time in the world and wasn't in a rush to learn more about my faith or who God created me to be.

If you are healthy I really encourage you to live everyday to its full potential. If you are sick, live everyday to its full potential. God often shows His strength when we are weak and you are no exception.

When I was sick I started offering up all of my pain, discomfort, loneliness, regret etc. for the Souls in Purgatory or for my vocation (whether that be religious life or marriage) and still do to this day. I don't remember which Saint but there was one who offered up her pain as flowers to surround the alter in Heaven (comment below if you know who, I can't remember!)

There is something so comforting about offering up your suffering, because then it feels like it has a purpose. God has a purpose for it of course, but He shows it in His own time.

I'm praying for all of you and would greatly appreciate your prayers. 

God Bless,
Megan Marie

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Knight in Shining Armor


Multiple times I have been guilty of wanting some handsome, young guy to come in and save me from all of my problems so life can be perfect. I have waited, wanted to be loved, to be desired and fought for.

One day at the Exposition of the Blessed Sacrament, I had a revelation, a revelation that left me in tears. I realized Jesus is my Knight in Shining Armor. He was mocked, tortured, killed, humiliated... just for me. The beauty of it all is He died just so He could spend eternity with me.

If that isn't true love, I don't know what is.

I can search forever for a handsome, young man to fill my heart's deepest desire; but the reality is only Jesus can. No other person can ever love me like He does. He has already shown me a deeper love than I can ever dream of... Now it is up to me to accept His love.

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Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Trusting God


I recently went to the Oregon coast and as I was walking on the beach, I was in total awe; it was so beautiful and warm, I think I might have to move. Just kidding... but not really! 

am so thankful I had the opportunity to take a quick trip before I start my freshman year of College next week! I didn't realize how stressed out I was (and I haven't even started school yet) until I was able to do an electronic detox and just take a break from work and the stress of everyday life. 

As I was walking on the beach, there wasn't anybody near by; if you know me, you'd know I would gladly jump on the opportunity to sing. I was singing about how grateful my heart was that God gave me the opportunity to de-stress. He knew I needed it. I started looking back on my life and thinking of all the ways God has worked in my life that I couldn't see at the time, but now understood. Then I started thinking about all the ways He's worked and is working in my life now that I have failed to notice.

I imagined the day when I finally meet God face to face. I imagined Him saying to me, "You made it!" His eyes filling with tears. Running to Him, He embraces me. He leads me by the hand and He shows me a timeline of my life. "Over here, you felt abandoned and alone, you cried out and I heard you. I was there with you, as much as it broke my heart to see you in so much pain, this over here is what would have happened had not you gone through this. I know it was hard, but look how strong you became! Because you dealt with this, you had so much sympathy for these people here and look how you allowed me to use you to touch their hearts. Back here, your heart shattered to pieces; I had to take away all of your worldly comforts because you needed to find comfort in me." He goes on for hours explaining and answering so many questions. 

God is working in every situation, even when you can't see it.

In the difficult situations, I really want to encourage you to remember that one day the pain will cease. In the moments you wish could last forever, remember that one day they will be unending. 

Xoxo,
Megan Marie

P.S. Please pray for me as I start college next week, I'm super nervous!
P.P.S. Elizabeth, this one is for you! 

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Friday, August 19, 2016

Re-Opened Wounds


Some wounds which I thought were healed were recently reopened. All of the sudden all of the pain in brand new again. Bleeding and aching all over again.

We hurt each other as a result of pain in our own lives. Lord I lay all of this at the foot of the cross. Help me forgive. Instead of turning to cause someone else pain, help me bring my broken heart to you. Hold me in my tears.


Shed your light and your love on my brokenness and heal me. Remind me that this is not forever. I am running to you. 

Romans 8:18 says, "I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing to the glory about to be revealed to us." The Lord has really spoken to me through this verse, giving me hope and getting me through countless times. 

I want to pray today for those who have hurt me. Have mercy on them God, they are just hurting too. 

Love,
Megan Marie

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Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Moments


In the moments that feel unbearable and too much to handle, remember that one day the pain will forever cease. Romans 8:18 says, "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed to us."

In the moments that you wish could last forever, remember that one day they will be unending.

It is so important not to get too caught up in the little things, which in the grand picture really don't matter. Remember that God is the only one we need to please. He is waiting for you, he wants to shower you with His love. In Him and only in Him can you find true freedom.

Xoxo, 
Megan Marie

P.S. Praying for you all today.